So I am an emotional mess at this very minute. I can barely see the keys I am typing (thank God I can type without looking at them or this post would be really screwed right now!) That doesn’t exactly help that I am trying to read what I am writing but we will see if we get through this without making too many errors.
Today Reagan started her first day in the new two year old preschool room at her daycare. Oh man…here come the tears again~! This is ridiculous!! Anyways, I was prepped last week by her toddler teacher that when I dropped her off today she would go into the four year old’s classroom with all the other kids until the two year old teacher arrived. They would sit and have breakfast and hang out until it was time for them to move into their own classroom. I usually drop Reagan about 7:15am two days a week. I was told that she wouldn’t transfer into her new room until about 8:30am.
The great news is that Reagan knew a handful of the kids when we walked in because within the past month or so three of them had just transferred into the twos including her best school friend Sophia who just moved last week. The horrible news (for mommy anyway) was that there was more than a handful of kids in there. By the time I left I counted twenty eight kids, two teachers! I was horrified. So many kids running around, a couple of the girls were fighting over the play kitchen equipment and screaming at the top of their lungs. One kid had his nose running so bad it was half way down his mouth. I wanted to cry right there but I didn’t need to scare an entire room full of kids.
Reagan looked around and gravitated toward a table full of Legos and started building. I wanted to whisk her out of there immediately. I’m not ready for this. It didn’t hit me until that moment that my little girl is a preschooler. It didn’t help that I got the babycenter.com email today either that told me all about life with my new preschooler. Damn you babycenter.com!
I got up to leave, gave her a big hug and kiss, told her that I loved her very much, walked two doors down into her new classroom to put away her blanket and dolly she brought with her and immediately started crying. Sophia’s mom knew exactly what I was going through as she did the same thing just a week earlier. She reminded me it gets easier and even though things are different Reagan will love all the new toys, activities and friends. By the way…thanks Paula! I never did thank you for comforting me this morning in my emotional meltdown. It’s hard coming to the realization that she isn’t a baby anymore.
As I was finishing this post Reagan’s toddler teacher Ms. Brandy just sent me this picture of Rey playing with blocks in her new room! Happy as a clam. I am excited for her and so happy. I think I just need a really big hug!